I'm 21, and yet when it comes to things such as people that are important to me at one time or another, I can't seem to let them go. For me, when it's finally time to leave someone behind it's been 2 or so years since the last time we saw each other or ever talked with one another.
I'm the type of people that likes to lose myself in others. I get hurt if I'm not careful. It always seems that when I'm a friend with someone, I understand everything and it's hard for me to try and explain how I feel. I always end up either confusing someone to the point where they don't want to be friends with me anymore, ore I hurt their feelings and we remain friends in an awkward way -- it will never be how it was like in the beginning.
Granted, people change and things will never be like when we first met.
I believe I've lived it all when it comes to friends. I've seen everything -- been though thick and thin in every situation imaginable to mankind... I've been dropped, avoided, ignored on purpose. I've slipped through fingers, been forgotten about. I've been loved. I've been liked. I've been used for what I'm good at, been a third wheel. I've been invisible in a room with people I've known for years.
I've been me, and somehow I believe nobody can handle it. Am I suffocating? Am I too demanding?
.... Am I annoying? Do I get on your nerves when I ask you questions? Do I love too fast? What do I do? What DID I do? What have I done?
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