When breathing gets hard, let it all out. All of it.

So... let me fill you in.

I'm growing apart from somebody. For the very first time in my life it's painful to let go, but I know that if I don't make it a clean break right now it'll get sloppy when it endures closer and closer to the end. Then I'll have to deal with arguments and people taking sides. Along with the stress of how the other person feels... how bad I hurt them by sustaining them in the air for so long, the reasons why I didn't say anything when it was taking its turn, how we're both equally to blame for this... naturally, she doesn't have a clue that it's bad, and it's lasted longer than a year.

My original plan was to talk to her and tell her how bad she hurt me. There was never a first time when it happened. Rather, it was a continuing build up of all the wrong things, or all the times I needed someone to talk to.

I guess only time will tell if it actually improves. It's just been such a long time. And in that time we've both become two very different people; two people that don't know each other anymore.

We'll see what tomorrow brings. Hopefully change.