Florida or Not Florida?

I miss my parents; living without them is very difficult to do. I find myself doing things I wouldn't ordinarily do. I go grocery shopping, I pay bills, I call people when I have a problem with my computer, I clip coupons... what is the world coming to?

But more than ever, I have a strong feeling about considering to move back to where my parents have settled. Florida.

So... in part of my decision making process I've decided to make a list of Pros and Cons on why I should move back and why I shouldn't move back.

WHY I SHOULD MOVE BACK:

Pros:

• Laundry is free


• My parents are there


• I'd get free food


• No rent


• My baby sister Jaycie is there


• My parents are there (did I already say that?)


• I'd basically have the same life I do now, only I'd have company


• I'd probably get a job really quick


• I'd have a bigger room/more space

Cons:

• I won't get to see Sam or Sean until their wedding in October


• 100% humidity = more hairspray


• HOT HOT HOT


• Hurricanes


• I'd have to transfer college credits


• Insurance for my car is more expensive


• Mom and Dad are planning to move again to another house

WHY I SHOULDN'T MOVE TO FLORIDA:

Pros:

• I have friends in Minnesota (but they never talk to me)... I guess that's a con


• I wouldn't have to transfer colleges


• Sam and Sean don't want me to go


• I have an awesome roommate that I'm just getting to know

Cons:

• My friends never talk to me, so why not move?


• I'm lonely. I'm only 20.


• I hate that I'm starting to lose friends... Florida would be the ideal place to get away
  

I've said some pretty nasty things about Florida. One of which that I should probably mention is that when I was down there for three months, I was depressed. I'm still wondering whether or not that will happen again. I'm not ready for a relapse (or anything like that). I don't like the fact that I moved back to MN because I wasn't ready. I wanted to be ready. I told myself millions of times, "You can do this" "You'll be fine, you're ready!" I guess that wasn't the best way to think... denying my problems inside of me for so long...

Now... while one can argue that I only want to move back because of my emotions, that's not the entire story. I'm not doing too good financially. It's hard paying bills every month because of the economy and it's difficulty to get a job. I've applied everywhere, called everywhere, spoke to everyone... nothing. If I moved back to Florida, I would probably have a job pretty fast. There are TONS of places there. AND I have a car... it would be easy to get to these places.

I still haven't made up my mind, but I'm leaning on moving. If by the end of next week I find myself jobless and bored... I'm going back home.

Peace out.