I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you.

I love Minnesota. Usually, it would be snowing right about now, but it's been rainy and cloudy for three days and I rather like it. I used to live in Washington State, so I've become acquainted with the rain like any person that lived has lived most of their life there.

I went to go put a check in the bank the other day, and the tell reminds me that it's a pretty rainy day. I told her that I was from Seattle and that it reminded me of home. She smiled.

People occasionally associate rainy days with sadness. I don't see how someone can think like that. It's beautiful. I love the rain. How it washes the snow off the road and and large clumps of snow are gone. It makes walking paths muddy and hard to get through... this doesn't bother me at all. I love when the rain stops, there's a slight mist in the air all day that remains constant. In Washington, the air was salty and misty when it rained. It smelled clean to me and there was a distinct moment when I could actually smell the rain. I miss that.

So... if it rains again tomorrow, it'll be another good day for me.

Things that have happened while it's been raining in MN:
I've been smiling lately.
My car looks clean, but it's really not.
I've been finding inspiration in my life again.
I got my financial aid check from school... so I have money again.
I've been having amazing hair days!
I've been thinking about my future.
and... for three days, loneliness hasn't crossed my mind once.

FACEBOOK UPDATE:
I haven't been on Facebook for a little under a week. It's very nice. Granted, I haven't been talking to some people, but it's not because I don't want to... it's because I'm sick of making decisions like whether or not I should be the one to talk first. I believe I'll come around... along with other people. To tell you the truth, I don't really like Facebook. In a way, it's kind of ruined my life, and now part of it will never be the same. I'm only trying to regain items I was supposed to have while on Facebook all the time...e.g.... there are many other ways of communication.

I Bet It Stung.

I've decided to take a break from Facebook. Looking back at what it has done for me in my life, I can't say that it's done anything positive. I've had great conversations, but it doesn't suffice for conversations that I could have had.

You can think of it as an experiment, but I choose to look at it as a life changing, re-evaluating process. Every once in a while, I take a step back and look at the things in my life. I sort through them. In the end, I get rid of things that I don't need and keep the things that mean the most to me. Sure, Facebook isn't a mental process, but I want to see how life can be without it. I want to believe that it'll make my life better, so I won't have to rely on other people's time anymore.

Why do people text me rather than call me?

Why do people insist on emailing me instead of calling me, or talking to me like a normal person?

Why do people have to forget to tell you that they love you?

Why do people have to plan out everything they want to say?

I wish we didn't go about things this way. I have to make a change in me. I have to set an example for me. I have to grow up. And hopefully by doing this, people will take me seriously.